Wednesday, April 3, 2019

Lent - Day 29

     I would one of the first people to expound on the gift that God has given us in our sexuality. Of course I am also one who believes that sexuality is not defined by a single act. I am reminded of the wonderful book The Sexual Celibate. While sex is a great gift to be thoroughly explored and enjoyed, it is again not just a single act and it is not be be abused.  

     When I was being ordained many years ago, we were asked to carefully consider (and sign) a document that agreed that should our spouse die, we would remain celibate. There was some chatter that if you had young children or were perhaps inordinately attached to sexuality, you might be granted a dispensation to the rule. You might be allowed to get remarried. I recall struggling a great deal with this. I still recall sequestering myself in the seminary chapel, deep in prayer trying to think about such a decision. I have a clear recollection that God spoke to me that day and said "this will not be a problem for you", sign anything they ask, have faith. And so I did.  Through a series of personal revelations and therapy I later realized later that I was gay.  My spouse and I released each other form our vows and I was formally laicized by the Roman church. Problem solved?

       No matter who we are, the gift of sexuality looms large in our lives. It is not something to be ignored and it is not something to be abused.  While we are sexual, physical beings, there is a spiritual aspect to us that cannot be denied. Our spiritual nature rises above everything else. While our sexuality can point to the spiritual and be a glimpse of heaven on earth, it is not to be confused with the totality of who we are or where we are headed, our divine inheritance and nature.

      Sounds sort of deep to me.  I can't help but think of one of my grand kids with a room full of toys. I might ask, why do always play with the same toy all the time, you have so many?  
I would ask the same of us, if sexuality is a gift from God, why would we 'play' with only that one 'toy' all the time to the distraction and detriment of everything else that is so important in our life.

    Lord for all of the gifts you grace us with, for joyfulness, moderation and perspective, we pray.


Romans 8:1-11

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