Why

Psalm 13:1-6 

         As we start out at the beginning of a new year, I find myself thinking anew about who I write for. For myself for sure but I cannot help but think of who I'd like to see read this and what they would get out of it.

         I write for everyone, certainly with a Christian point of view, somewhat Cathological, but open to all. But if the gay community is my target audience the I have some serious work to do. It's not that gay people need more redemption than others, that is not true. It's not that they sin more than anyone else either, that is a fallacy. The biggest issue is how marginalized and often despised we are as a gay community and then doubly so in many Christian communities. As a result, it also includes low self esteem and even self loathing. Marginalized all around, misunderstood and then it becomes easier for everyone to stereotype and hate.  In addition, we are no different than any other human, straight or gay, trying to find out way in the world with personal issues and scars. We try to find love and peace.

             As if the desperation, confusion and difficulties of coming out were not hard enough, we all have to deal with the world at large. We have to deal with judgements that others say God has for us.

             The ultimate answer for me comes from a relationship with our loving creator. That has helped me through any troubles I have ever had. It is the the loving arms of Jesus wrapped around this portly body that has made me feel at peace and able to move forward in faith and love. It gave me the strength to stand up and come out at the ripe age of 50. Somehow in the 20 years of Catholic education, I managed to get the real message which is love and faith, not rubrics and remonstrations. Many were not so lucky, this blog is also for them.

             Take a few minutes to read the passage for today. It may touch your soul. It is a prayer to God when perhaps you cannot find the words you want t say. Prayer though is always from the heart.        

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
    How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
    and every day have sorrow in my heart?
    How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
    Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
    and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
    my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
    for he has been good to me.